Five Minute Friday: Join

It’s Friday and, once again, I’m joining Lisa-Jo for Five Minutes of spilling our thoughts onto the virtual page. If you have five minutes to spare to write or read or leave a word of encouragement for someone else, hop on over to Lisa-Jo’s and join in. Happy Friday!

    1. Write for 5 minutes flat – no editing, no over thinking, no backtracking.
    2. Link back here and invite others to join in.
    3. Please visit the person who linked up before you & encourage them.

Today’s Prompt: Join

I read today’s prompt and I considered not joining. Ironic, no? The word join brings up memories of team sports and bible studies and after school clubs. It reminds me of Vacation Bible School and compulsory fun. I have a strict policy against compulsory fun. It can’t be fun if I am required to do it.
My husband comes home from various conferences or group meetings and tells me about the team building exercises. I shudder and think it might literally kill me if I needed to attend one of those functions. Please do not ask me to take fifty straws and build a complex structure with ten other people. You will find me hiding beneath the tree branches reading a book instead.
Some of my reluctance comes from a place of freedom, as in I need to feel a sense of freedom. It also comes from a place of fear, and I’m working hard to change this. Hence the joining in on Five Minute Fridays. Fear keeps me from taking part, from wondering if I will be the last one chosen for the team. It keeps me from saying what I think, and joining the crowd, and believing I have something to offer each one of you. I’ve stood behind the glass looking in for too long, wondering if there is a space for me within the circle. I’d like to believe there is, and next to me I’ll save an open space for you. Compulsory fun not included.