Matters of the Heart

“The Lord searches every heart and understands every motive behind the thoughts… “
1 Chronicles 28:9

I’ve been thinking a great deal about this lately, but I’ve been hesitant to put words to it. Not because it’s a difficult topic, but because it is one that God has brought me back to again and again. I feel a little like the Israelites going around that mountain one more time in search of the promised land. Only my mountain is called “Hidden motives of the heart”.

I’ve found that the closer I think I am to figuring out this Christian life, and the more confident I become in my own “goodness”, that this is when God chooses to peel back another layer of me and expose my true heart. He peels back the layer that covers the deeper knowledge of my motivations and hidden thoughts. Those secret things that I so carefully hide from view.

Nothing is hidden from Him. That is a truly sobering thought. Once I got past the lie that living a “good” life was enough, I was faced with the fact that every thought behind my every action matters to God. My self righteous thoughts, my coveting, my hateful attitudes, my anger. These are the things that have significance in His eyes. It’s hard to maintain a pharisaical attitude when you realize that your mind and heart are on display before Him at all times. Maybe that’s the point.

So, when I feel myself going around that mountain again, I remember this:

“The Lord is gracious and compassionate, slow to anger, and rich in love”.
Psalm 145:8

I am so grateful for His love,